I was absolutely shattered. Raising a baby was truly exhausting. Cameron woke up twice a night for feeds, not to forgot having to change his nappy what seemed like every hour!
It wasn't like I even had Marcus here to help me - I was a single mum. I had never wanted to be a single mum, I dreamed of settling down with a nice man and having a big family but well.. I guess destiny has made its choice.
Don't get me wrong though, I love Cameron with all my heart. Every move he makes, every time his grabs my little finger it makes my heart melt.Having a life to look after is tiring no doubt, but it is wholly amazing. I've only had him for a week, but I couldn't imagine life without him.
Luckily for me, Diana and Laura have moved in with me for a bit to help me look after Cameron, and for that I am eternally grateful.
Laura is so in love with Cameron, I can tell that she will be a great mother herself, she just needs to find a man first!
Meanwhile, the day of Marcus's funeral loomed. Diana took it upon herself to make the preperations for it, she said I had enough to deal with.
On the day of the funeral, we all woke up, got ready and headed off. I could already tell it was going to be a hard and emotional day.
We took our seats in the church and went through the procession. Then the preist asked if anyone would like to give a speech; I refused, because I knew that I would breakdown halfway through the speech.
Good old Laura stepped up to the plate though.
"Marcus was an amazing person. He was sweet, kind, thoughtful, loving, one of the nicest people you could ever meet. He was all you could ever want in a person and more.
He was the best brother to me; I can't think of a single time when we argued or when he was unkind to me or anything like that. I am so grateful to have had him in my life.
Not only was he an amzing brother, but an amazing son and fiance too."
(At this point she looked at Diana and I, respectively.)
"And I know, I have no doubt in my mind, that Marcus would have been the best father to Cameron.
He will be greatly missed, but we all know where Marcus has gone - to the great sky above, and that's where he deserves to be."
I couldn't have said it better myself. At this point though, I was in tears. I think it was the mention of Marcus being a father to Cameron that set me off.
Then we headed outside for the burial, as the sun slowly fell. Now everyone was crying (I even saw Dad sneak a few tears!). We laid down some flowers, and I said my goodbyes.
After that, we left to go home and have some coffee to "sober" us up.
As Dad handed around cups of coffee, Diana exclaimed "I have an announcement to make." Everyone turned to listen.
"I am moving to Champs Le Sims in a few days time."
"Really?!" I said, shocked to say the least.
Diana nodded. "I can't stay here, this place has too many bad memories for me, and I can't go back to Twinbrook, that place has too many memories full stop. I feel like I need a fresh start, and the Champs is the place to do it. I don't mean to leave you Gracie, but I need to get away. I will come and visit you and Cameron of course."
I nodded. "I understand. We'll miss you, but you gotta do what you gotta do."
"Wait, Laura?" I turned to her. "You're not going as well are you?"
She laughed. "No, no. I like Sunset Valley too much. After the fog of Twinbrook, do you really think I'm going to move from somewhere sunny and beautiful?" She laughed again. "And anyway, there is no way I'm going to leave my best friend alone to look after my nephew and godson, am I?"
Phew, that was a relief. And as I got ready for bed that night and settled Cameron down, I reflected on the days events.
My heart was aching, of course it was.
But now we had said goodbye, maybe, just maybe, my heart could start to heal again.
Sorry it has taken me a while to get this chapter out, it's been a very hectic week for me, especially as Christmas is coming up soon.
And I won't have another chapter out before Christmas, so I just want to take this opportunity to wish you and your families a merry Christmas :)